What did I thought? Me being the princes loving the prince on the white horse? Or the Cinderella with her lost shoe with a story-ending of a magical marriage with the prince? I actually thought and believed it all become true. With my dreamy mind I only dare to fantasize about this fairy tail prince, could’t imagine he would really exist, him standing in front of me… indeed.. he exists.. I never believed he would like and love me in a beautiful way, in which I was not even able to compete that by loving myself, that made me being attached to this divine and complete feeling of this other soul-being.. Every time we met, we laughed, danced through the nights, kissed and made love like it was the last day we could spent together.. He stayed 24-hours in my thoughts without his physical presence, just rethinking, visualizing the memories we had together.. hoping to see him, to feel him and hold him to BE my presence, forever, for a while or someday ever.. This perfect oneness we experienced, we couldn’t even see the flaws and made us able to forget the scars and the pain we have been through, only happiness we created together.. we together feel unique and celestial.. mystical human beings we are and I accept, accepting the circumstances, our world where we live in .. the not so beautiful earth.. containing the dark sides and influences, that damaged us one day when we grew up.. Still we found our way together, bonding, to feel the last divinity that has been left in this universe, which was capable of softing our painful wounds.. but, then I regret with pain in my heart, regret I ate from the tree of life at my weakest moment. My damaged heart at a certain moment, did not allowed me to have complete faith nor believing you would ever choose for me like I was worth to go for. Alone, my better halve left me, remorseless, lonely in my existence, walking my path, my life.. whereby I did not know what to expect, to believe who I actually was, to believe who I actually was without my other halve.. Through days, the rain, thunder and storm had been surrounding me, knowing I was standing alone, without my guardian, my shield nor shelter.. Even my tears could not be distinguished from rainfalls that had been fallen from the sky.. The days, months and years passed by as I walked on the road, still having the hope you would appear some day in my presence, still able to recapture the divine love we had, that one day our remembrance would convince you to forgive, my soul, me as a human being with flaws and regrets with a broken damaged heart.. I feel pain and will always feel this until the day I would see, hear and feel you again.. to be the one soul, hopefully a day you would care about me in your damaged heart.. but until that day .. I will only feel sorrow..